Going to the gym and restricting has been working okay. I'm about 4 pounds away from my first goal and I've noticed a slight difference in my stomach and arms. None of that matters at the moment. Haven't seen the boy since Sunday morning when he went home. He hasn't called or texted me. I feel fat and ugly. I know I'm probably being such a fucking girl and overreacting since we only started seeing each other last week, but I would like to see him again. Is that too much to ask?

Too busy to update, but I've been doing fine.

Lost another pound. So far, since starting to post again, I've lost 10 pounds. Even if I don't post everyday, just coming on here and reading you girls' posts everyday keeps me motivated! Whether it's reading snippets of your personal lives, checking out your thinspo, or stealing your tips and tricks, it has all helped me come closer to my first goal. THANK YOU!! Only 7 more pounds to go! Referencing to an older post, I think I'm going to buy myself a pair of the Minnetonka booties in black IF I reach 140 lbs.

Didn't eat much yesterday. Most of my calories came from drinks at the bar. I ran into the boy at the bar and I know he's a keeper because when it came to ordering shots, he went for Patron. And paid for them. Lovely.
Shots aside though, he is way better than the last guy I dated (Kevin). If anyone has been reading my stuff for awhile, you'll know about all of the terrible things he did and how basically I dated a feelingless robot who made me feel like shit for two years. Seriously, we dated for two years and after all that, he still couldn't say 'I love you'. Asshole. And he broke up with me. Twice. And took advantage of the fact that I still had feelings for him by having sex with me when we weren't even together. All in all, Kevin was a dick.

But that's in the past, and now it's the present, and the future's looking bright. Think I can hit 140 by next Saturday? That's a pound a day, but I'm a determined little thing. Excuse me. That's a pound a day, but I'm a determined chubby thing. I'm blabbing, sorry.

It's been awhile since I last posted. So much has happened since then. I had some friends come and visit, so my intake was terrible (pizza, teriyaki, pasta, alcohol) and a yo-yo'ed between 156 and 152. THEN, I met a boy. (if not interested, feel free to move past the story of the new boy)

I met him at a party my friend was DJing at this past Saturday. A bunch of people came to my house after the party and he and I continued to hang out and exchange numbers. He's the cook at the wine bar right next door to where I work and I would by lying if I said I hadn't noticed him before. He ended up texting me the next day and saying how he had a great time hanging out with me and he'd like to see me again. I told him to call me sometime that week. He called me TUESDAY.

We ate dinner at his house and then smoked weed and watched a movie. I'll spare you the details, so let's just say we stayed up until 6am, and we weren't talking. It was the BEST ever. Burned ALOT of calories.
The next morning I got this text message. "I can't stop thinking about last night. You are amazing"
I saw him later that day as I was leaving work and he invited me to come back after his shift was over and have some wine and play rummy (I love rummy). Of course I did and this lead to me going back to his house and sleeping over again.

Basically I'm giddy as fuck right now. I've been feeling so excited about him that I haven't even thought about food or being hungry. So now I'm finally in the 140's and life is good.

2. Clinique Skin Care

3. Tanning membership (I know it's terrible for your skin, but I want to be slightly tan, for once in my life)

4. Gym membership (I'm joining on Monday, but with extra money I can afford the membership that includes use of the jacuzzi, steam room, and sauna in the women's locker room)

5. The Amelie and Lost in Translation posters I've been wanting for awhile

6. Bobbi Brown (for basic everyday make-up) & MAC (for fun colors and brushes)
 
7. Set of gel nails (I bite my nails and I've heard that fake nails are a great way to help you quit. Gels don't ruin your real nails like acrylics do)

8. Magazine subscriptions (Self, Nylon, The New Yorker, Marie Claire, Glamour, The Economist, Vanity Fair, Vogue, and Under the Radar)

9. Stumptown coffee beans (it's expensive, but they pay their farmers more than any other coffee bean company and their stuff IS. THE. BEST.)

10. When I get there.....CLOTHES. Good God, once I reach my second goal I will go BANANAS.
My favorite places to shop: Anthropologie, H&M, Topshop, Urban Outfitters, Young Designer's markets, modcloth, American Apparel, thrift and vintage clothing stores, J. Crew, Marc Jacobs.

 

     

I'm not thinking about tomorrow, or the day after, right now I'm just thinking about controlling myself today. Each day I kick ass, I get one step closer to loosing 16 lbs and reaching my first goal of 140lbs. Here is my overall plan
 

Oh Lordy, my scale has to be broken. How did I go from 156 to 152 on two days? Must be a fluke, 'cause I still feel like Rosie O'Donnell. Well, let's not fuck this up, shall we?

I did well yesterday as far as food, but that bottle of champagne at the end of the night really fucked up my intake. We sat around and played scattergories with made up catagories like, "Famous Sluts" "Pick Up Lines" "Desserts" and "Ways You Get Someone Back To Your Room". I laughed so hard during the two hours we played that I hope I burned off at least SOME of those empty champagne calories.

The parents of Billy Burke, the guy who plays Bella's Dad on Twilight, came into my work today (I work in a wine tasting room) and gave me the goods. 1) Robert Pattinson hates Twilight 2) He literally has no idea how popular he is. That little visit brightened up my work day!