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Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • Currently
    The West Wing - The Complete First Season
    By Jason Ensler, Martin Sheen, Stockard Channing, Allison Janney, Moira Kelly
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    I think I need some help

    I've really been struggling these past two months. I've been spending a lot of time alone, sleeping more than I should, exercising ZERO, and generally being bad about food and alcohol. I'm hating my body right now.

    I'm starting over. How many times do you get to say that before it's ridiculous?

    P.S. Does anyone have a texting buddy? It would be nice to be able to send a quick text when I'm tempted to ruin all of my hard work. Does that work?

    UHHHGGGGHHHH.

    This is it. Let's do this.

Wednesday, 02 September 2009

  • Currently
    For Emma, Forever Ago
    By Bon Iver
    re: stacks
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    All I Want In Life Is To Be Smaller

    144
    Going to the gym and restricting has been working okay. I'm about 4 pounds away from my first goal and I've noticed a slight difference in my stomach and arms. None of that matters at the moment. Haven't seen the boy since Sunday morning when he went home. He hasn't called or texted me. I feel fat and ugly. I know I'm probably being such a fucking girl and overreacting since we only started seeing each other last week, but I would like to see him again. Is that too much to ask?

    Gross. Ugly. Can't bear to look at thinspo, sorry. Stay strong ladies, and thanks for all of your comments and support. I'll post more tomorrow when I'm not feeling like such a fucking hefer.

Tuesday, 01 September 2009

  • Currently
    Survival Strategies in a Modern World
    By Liechtenstein
    Roses in the Park
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    My butt = In gear

    147
    I've been pretty good about restricting these past few days but have still been maintaining a solid 147 lbs. SO, I'm off to the gym with my friend for an hour. I've got to start combining low calories + exercise if I actually want to start shedding some serious weight. LET'S DO THIS!

    Since it's first thing in the morning (i.e. no INTAKE/OUTTAKE yet), I'll update later. What kind of thinspo would you guys like to see? Lookbook? Fall/autumn (It is the 1st of September!)? Before & after? Your wish is my command :)

Sunday, 30 August 2009

Saturday, 29 August 2009

  • Currently
    Miike Snow
    By Miike Snow
    Silvia
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    Side note: Does anyone else think Hilary Duff has gotten chubby? I mean, she's skinnier than me, but she's on Gossip Girl now and I would expect her to look better than this... Her legs look gross and her arms are flabby.


  • Currently
    Nighttiming
    By Coconut Records
    Summer Day
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    The Dog Days Are Over

    147

    Lost another pound. So far, since starting to post again, I've lost 10 pounds. Even if I don't post everyday, just coming on here and reading you girls' posts everyday keeps me motivated! Whether it's reading snippets of your personal lives, checking out your thinspo, or stealing your tips and tricks, it has all helped me come closer to my first goal. THANK YOU!! Only 7 more pounds to go! Referencing to an older post, I think I'm going to buy myself a pair of the Minnetonka booties in black IF I reach 140 lbs.

    Didn't eat much yesterday. Most of my calories came from drinks at the bar. I ran into the boy at the bar and I know he's a keeper because when it came to ordering shots, he went for Patron. And paid for them. Lovely.
    Shots aside though, he is way better than the last guy I dated (Kevin). If anyone has been reading my stuff for awhile, you'll know about all of the terrible things he did and how basically I dated a feelingless robot who made me feel like shit for two years. Seriously, we dated for two years and after all that, he still couldn't say 'I love you'. Asshole. And he broke up with me. Twice. And took advantage of the fact that I still had feelings for him by having sex with me when we weren't even together. All in all, Kevin was a dick.

    But that's in the past, and now it's the present, and the future's looking bright. Think I can hit 140 by next Saturday? That's a pound a day, but I'm a determined little thing. Excuse me. That's a pound a day, but I'm a determined chubby thing. I'm blabbing, sorry.

    INTAKE
    16 oz Starbucks iced white mocha, 3 shots, 1/2 the syrup (280)

    THINSPO, short and sweet, I'm lazy today.

Friday, 28 August 2009

  • Currently
    Two Suns
    By Bat for Lashes
    Daniel
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    I'm still fat.....surprise!

    148

    Lost another pound on my "I'm so excited, this new guy is amazing and I can't wait to see where this goes" eating plan. I've been restricting like crazy and with the addition of the two glasses I had of bourbon last night (Knob Creek, crazy good bourbon), I ended up consuming less than 200 calories. I just haven't felt hungry at all.

    I know I'm happy and although I've been losing about a pound a day for the last week, I'm still fat. That's the shitty thing about this, no matter how much I lose, I'm still a hopeless fattie. *Sigh*
    Don't know if I'll see the boy tonight, he was bottling wine early this morning and then was cooking for some special event. Oh well, that won't make me eat!

    INTAKE
    1/2 apple (40)
    1/2 can "Eating Right" beef + barley soup (110)
    1 oz mozzarella (20)
    1 glass of red wine (150)
    1 shot of Patron! (?)
    2 glasses of Stella Artois (?)
    night gets blurry.....

    OUTTAKE
    1 hr of morning.....activites?!? (280)

    My thinspo theme is stockings. I've love to get skinny legs and wear over the knee stockings with boots and dresses. Love the look.
      

Thursday, 27 August 2009

  • Currently
    In Rainbows
    By Radiohead
    House of Cards
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    On my way

    149
    It's been awhile since I last posted. So much has happened since then. I had some friends come and visit, so my intake was terrible (pizza, teriyaki, pasta, alcohol) and a yo-yo'ed between 156 and 152. THEN, I met a boy. (if not interested, feel free to move past the story of the new boy)

    I met him at a party my friend was DJing at this past Saturday. A bunch of people came to my house after the party and he and I continued to hang out and exchange numbers. He's the cook at the wine bar right next door to where I work and I would by lying if I said I hadn't noticed him before. He ended up texting me the next day and saying how he had a great time hanging out with me and he'd like to see me again. I told him to call me sometime that week. He called me TUESDAY.

    We ate dinner at his house and then smoked weed and watched a movie. I'll spare you the details, so let's just say we stayed up until 6am, and we weren't talking. It was the BEST ever. Burned ALOT of calories.
    The next morning I got this text message. "I can't stop thinking about last night. You are amazing"
    I saw him later that day as I was leaving work and he invited me to come back after his shift was over and have some wine and play rummy (I love rummy). Of course I did and this lead to me going back to his house and sleeping over again.
    STORY OVER (sorry about the novel)

    Basically I'm giddy as fuck right now. I've been feeling so excited about him that I haven't even thought about food or being hungry. So now I'm finally in the 140's and life is good.

    INTAKE
    Banana (105)
    Light strawberry banana yogurt (80)
    Cranberry Emergen-C (25)

    OUTTAKE
    Morning...uhhh....activities :) (290)

    THINSPO

     


Saturday, 15 August 2009

  • Currently
    Lon Gisland
    By Beirut
    Scenic World (Second Version)
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    Probably should get my fat ass moving...

    152

    Last night was weird. I was doing great with my fast and then my friend came over and wanted to open a bottle of this nice Syrah he had and I NEVER, EVER turn down nice wine. That would go against everything I believe in. So I had two glasses and then we smoke two bowls and just sat on my porch, chatting with our friends. About twenty minutes later I got really dizzy and light headed, I felt like I was going to pass out. I had to go lie down and I thought "If I'm about to pass out, I should eat something". So I let my friend make me a sandwich and I ate it and wasn't dizzy anymore, so no regrets.

    It DOES however, make me think I need to start a serious work-out schedule if I want to start reaching my goals. Restricting alone does not a hot body make, or something like that. I get paid on Monday AND it's my day off, so I'll pick up my paycheck, visit the bank, and then start my new fitness journey. It's all very exciting. I don't start work until 11 am so I plan on getting all of my exercise done first thing in the morning.

    Let's do this.
    Monday (day off) - 1 hour of cardio, 1 hr yoga (Since I'm starting out this week, I'll just be doing 35 min this Monday)

    Tuesday (shorter shift) - 1 hour strengh training, 20 min light cardio then 20 min of stretching

    Wednesday - 1 hour of cardio

    Thursday - 1 hour strength training, yoga

    Friday - Pilates class, swim laps after work.

    Saturday (longest work day) - DAY OFF

    Sunday - 1 hour strength training, 20 min light cardio then 20 min stretching

    I'm probably being too ambitious, but I figure I'll try it this week and re-adjust if needed.

    INTAKE
    20 oz iced coffee with 2 tsp agave nectar (15)
    7 - 8 oz glasses of water
    10 slices lemongrass salami (I guessed 60, this was artisan salami that was sliced thinner than paper and comprised mostly of lean pork, spices, and lemongrass)

    These are my Top 3 Favorite thinspo photos right now......
    Always been a favorite. I WILL have this body...eventually.

    I want my hair to look like hers. It's almost that long and already that blonde. Oh, and I have a bad smoking habit. Oops.

    I ♥ this outfit
     


Friday, 14 August 2009

  • Currently
    Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix
    By Phoenix
    Countdown (Sick For the Big Sun)
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    Ten things to spend my money on besides food....

    With all of the money I'm going to save by eating sparsly at home and not drinking alcohol, what will I do with all of my extra money?
    (This list is things I like)
    1. Bumble & Bumble hair products (I love the curl conscious line)

    2. Clinique Skin Care

    3. Tanning membership (I know it's terrible for your skin, but I want to be slightly tan, for once in my life)

    4. Gym membership (I'm joining on Monday, but with extra money I can afford the membership that includes use of the jacuzzi, steam room, and sauna in the women's locker room)

    5. The Amelie and Lost in Translation posters I've been wanting for awhile

    6. Bobbi Brown (for basic everyday make-up) & MAC (for fun colors and brushes)
     
    7. Set of gel nails (I bite my nails and I've heard that fake nails are a great way to help you quit. Gels don't ruin your real nails like acrylics do)

    8. Magazine subscriptions (Self, Nylon, The New Yorker, Marie Claire, Glamour, The Economist, Vanity Fair, Vogue, and Under the Radar)

    9. Stumptown coffee beans (it's expensive, but they pay their farmers more than any other coffee bean company and their stuff IS. THE. BEST.)

    10. When I get there.....CLOTHES. Good God, once I reach my second goal I will go BANANAS.
    My favorite places to shop: Anthropologie, H&M, Topshop, Urban Outfitters, Young Designer's markets, modcloth, American Apparel, thrift and vintage clothing stores, J. Crew, Marc Jacobs.

     

         

  • Currently
    Grand
    By Matt and Kim
    Daylight
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    Cookies are the devil

    151
    FUCK YOU COOKIE.

    I had one cookie last night. Just one. It was from Trader Joe's and since I live in the middle of nowhere, I never get Trader Joe's! But since I maintained, the cookie really wasn't worth it. No cookie ever is. I do have to give myself alot of credit for avoiding the 6 cupcakes from Cupcake Royale that my roommate left out for everyone. That was some real willpower, ladies. Can a girl get some props?


     So after about 900 calories yesterday and no weight loss today I've settled on a maximum intake of 500 calories a day. To made up for my lack of disgression yesterday, I'll be liquid fasting today and tomorrow. And for me that doesn't mean drinking a bunch of chemical filled diet sodas or sugary juices or even alcohol, it means sticking to homebrewed coffee, green tea, and real juice from Odwalla. The avoiding alcohol thing will be difficult since it's the weekend, but I'll just use 'work in the morning' as my excuse.

    INTAKE
    20 oz coffee with 2 tsp agave nectar (15)
    5 - 8 oz glasses of water
    1/2 bottle Odwalla superfood (130)

    Classic Thinspo (Sorry if nothing is new, but it's hard to beat a classic!)

Thursday, 13 August 2009

  • Currently
    Lungs
    The Dog Days Are Over
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    Each day is one step closer....

    151
    I'm not thinking about tomorrow, or the day after, right now I'm just thinking about controlling myself today. Each day I kick ass, I get one step closer to loosing 16 lbs and reaching my first goal of 140lbs. Here is my overall plan
    HW: 180 lbs (This was a low point for me)
    SW: 156 lbs
    CW: 151 lbs
    1st GW: 140 lbs
    2nd GW: 132 lbs
    3rd GW: 125 lbs
    Ultimate Goal: 115 lbs

    If I reach my first goal, I plan on buying one of the following three items (no clothing since I plan on continuing to loose weight after my 1st goal)

     

    INTAKE
    Coffee w/ creamer + splenda (45)
    1/2 c. Wallaby organic low-fat yogurt (70)
    1/2 c granola (150)
    1 tbsp Skippy chunky peanut butter (95)
    2 c Amy's organic minestrone soup (180)
    1 flour tortilla, 1/3 c brown rice, 1/4 c black beans, 1 egg, 2 tbsp of salsa (285)

    TOTAL: 825 calories

    Wow, I had a really fatty breakfast. At least I learned never to make that again ( I'm sticking with oatmeal!). Overall, an okay day. I'll see how I feel/weight tomorrow morning and decide what my daily calorie limit will be. It's looking like somewhere between 500 and 700.
    Some beautiful skinnies, courtesy of Lookbook.nu
     

Wednesday, 12 August 2009

  • Currently
    Jim
    By Jamie Lidell
    Another Day
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    Netflix!

    I just got Netflix so I now have the ability to watch over 60 workout videos....INSTANTLY! Jillian Michaels, Crunch, yoga, pilates, I'm going to try it all! Look out for lots of work-out DVD reviews to come from me in the future. I'm going to try one video a day. BOOM!

  • Currently
    M.A.G.I.C.
    By The Sound of Arrows
    M.A.G.I.C.
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    Unlike my past relationships, I'm not going to ruin this

    152
    Oh Lordy, my scale has to be broken. How did I go from 156 to 152 on two days? Must be a fluke, 'cause I still feel like Rosie O'Donnell. Well, let's not fuck this up, shall we?

    I did well yesterday as far as food, but that bottle of champagne at the end of the night really fucked up my intake. We sat around and played scattergories with made up catagories like, "Famous Sluts" "Pick Up Lines" "Desserts" and "Ways You Get Someone Back To Your Room". I laughed so hard during the two hours we played that I hope I burned off at least SOME of those empty champagne calories.

    The parents of Billy Burke, the guy who plays Bella's Dad on Twilight, came into my work today (I work in a wine tasting room) and gave me the goods. 1) Robert Pattinson hates Twilight 2) He literally has no idea how popular he is. That little visit brightened up my work day!

    INTAKE
    Coffee w/ 1 tbsp french vanilla creamer (45)
    1 c chopped tomatoes (from my garden!) w/ balsamic vinegar & s+p (65)
    1/2 c brown rice and 1/4 c boiled chicken (140)
    8 oz white wine from work (77)

    T.H.I.N.S.P.I.R.A.T.I.O.N.

Tuesday, 11 August 2009

  • Currently
    Ashes Grammar
    By Sunny Day in Glasgow
    Ashes Grammar
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    If I binge and purge and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?

    Can anyone suggest a great workout DVD? And a yoga DVD? Or a pilates DVD? HELP!!!

    I failed yesterday. My friend brought me a fish taco and a sope with cheese, caramelized onions, and avocado for dinner as a surprise. I couldn't turn it down, right in front of him, so I ate it all and felt like a hefer. After we ate, we were sitting on my porch and inside my mind I started freaking out, thinking about all of the calories in that sope. So I purged twenty minutes after I had eaten. SKINNY FAIL.

    Later my friends came over and we sat on the porch and played trivial pursuit and chain smoked. I probably had FOUR glasses of white wine throughout the night. So minus my little B&P session,  my day was mildly successful.

    Today has gone well. I'm starting to get into my routine. I love love love love when I get snug and secure into my own private routine. Everything feels right and I am light and clear-headed and the thought of a cheeseburger makes me want to vomit. I'm almost there.

    MY THINSPO SECRET: http://www.lookbook.nu (maybe it's not a huge secret, but I LOVE Lookbook for not just thinspo, but also fashion inspiration)

    INTAKE
    On-the-Go Crystal Light fruit punch (10)
    1 oz blue cheese (100)
    1/4 c brown rice, 1/2 c zucchini, caramelized onions, and swiss chard, 1/4 c boiled chicken (I make a big batch of this at the beginning of the week and eat it for lunches or dinners. If it's already made, there's no temptation to go out!) (200)

    UPDATE: Ate a handful of tortilla chips with salsa (probs 100)
    1 bottle of Andre (500, HOLY FUCKING BALLS, but I should have expected that)

    TOTAL: 910 (Way to go, whale)

    "Glowy" thinspo (does that make sense?)
       

Monday, 10 August 2009

  • Currently
    (500) Days Of Summer-Music From The Motion Picture
    By Soundtrack
    "She's Got You High" - Mumm-Ra
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    Bitch is back.....

    156 lbs
    Thank GOD I'm back. I've decided/discovered that the only way I can consistently keep my shit together is if I post here AT LEAST once a day.

    I'm not sure what my new plan is yet, but I'm working on a new diet/exercise/beauty routine. I've gotten most of it worked out so I'll probably finish it today and then post it before bed.

    I've also realized I need to spend more time by myself. I get home from work and then immediately go and hang out with friends. This usually results in eating foods that will make my fat ass fatter. Plus it never leaves me any time to do the things I need to. For example, read more, clean my room, do laundry, give myself pedicures and manicures, organize my thinspo and look for more online, paint, nap, etc Etc ETC... You know, things that are important in order to keep your life together. The more time I spend alone on myself, the closer I'll get to perfection. I WANT so badly to be the girl all of her friends are jealous of, the girl who gets all the attention when we go out, the girl who can have any boy she wants. I'm. On. My. Way.

    INTAKE:
    Water [x] [x] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]
    Coffee with 1 tbsp organic agave nectar (30)
    2 oz OJ, just a swig from the carton! (30)
    1/4 c brown rice, 1/4 c zucchini, sweet onions, and swiss chard, 1/4 c boiled chicken (180)

    I'm going wine tasting with my friend later today, so to balance out all those calories, I'll probably just stick to a grapefruit and some carrots for dinner. RAW VEGGIES, YAY!

    I haven't posted in awhile, so enjoy all of the thinspo that's been backing up on my computer. If you like this, PLEASE SUBSCRIBE! Or better yet, tell your subscribers to subscribe!

    Here we go!



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    • Member Since: 7/2/2008

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  • Favorite Artists: Broken Social Scene, Radiohead, Bon Iver, Lykke Li, M83, Hot Chip, Animal Collective, Page France, My Bloody Valentine
  • Guilty Pleasure: Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Katy Perry
  • Songs I repeat the most: "Collide You a Drank" - A T Pain and Cloud Cult mash-up
  • Band I wish I was in: Animal Collective

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